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So I have finally realized that my 'baby weight' isn't going anywhere without help. I joined the ymca and have started this ActiveTrax thing, where they walk you though machines and get your goals and then set up workouts for you (with the right weight and seat position). You keep track of your workouts and then they change them when you need. I have never really used any of the machines because I had no idea where to start, but I've gone twice this week (the y is two blocks from work, so we go during lunch). I don't really know what my goal weight is, but at 182lbs (my current weight), my pre-Henry clothes don't fit and even then I could have stood to lose a couple of pounds. Plus almost everything but my belly looks normal, so I know people look at me and think chubby or preggers. I need to figure out a goal weight, but I don't really know what to pick. I've never been super weight conscious, because I didn't really gain or lose weight, I just always was. My mom used to tell me that that would catch up with me. I'm not going to do like a weekly check-in here or anything, but if any of you are feeling froggy, you could guilt trip me every once in a while!
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Ugly day. Henry woke up at 3 and screamed for at least two hours. He didn't cry, he screamed. I still don't know why. Patrick and I took turns holding him and he would calm down and then start right back up. My head hurts and I think I forgot my medicine yesterday. Also, today would have been my mom's 59th birthday. I'm trying to decide if I want to go to the graveside today. I've only been a handful of times, but I grew up going a lot with my mom to visit and put flowers and wreaths on her parents and grandparents. I don't want to ignore the fact that it's her birthday, but I'm not sure I want the pain that goes with acknowledging it either.
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Grammy, Grampa and Aunt Zoe took Henry to the zoo on Friday. There are pictures but I think they are on Zoe's phone. He was pretty unimpressed overall, but the otters were putting on a show so he liked that and there was a truck you could pretend to drive and he loved that. They took him through the petting zoo, but he didn't want to get too close. The lady offered him a hairbrush and they had to grab it away because he likes to beat things with it and they didn't want him to swing at the animals. Then they went to the McDonalds where he had a sprite and an ice cream cone. The last hour he was awake was spent running up and down the hallway with his hands over his head screaming. And they wonder why he's crazy sometimes with them?!? They don't give him naps and they fill him up with sugar, of course he doesn't know what to do with that.
Pics of Henry and one of my new do )
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I have been thinking about this all day. I don't know that I have sufficient words for what I want to say, but I need to say it. Cote de Pablo who plays Ziva David on NCIS is leaving. Lots of speculation about money or family or whatever. Why is not important to me. I'm angry and hurt, because someone important to me is being taken away. If you have never loved a fictional character then you probably can't understand this and I'm not sure why we are friends. I love Ziva. I identify with certain things in her life and I feel close to her. I don't want to lose her, because Ziva David has changed my life. I am appreciative that Cote de Pablo is willing to come back long enough to "bring closure to Ziva," but I wanted to be able to say good bye as a group and I wanted she and Tony to ride off into the sunset. I kept thinking that maybe next year Tony and Ziva would get together and now there won't be a next year. I am not in any way trying to disregard the other actors and characters on this show, but you also have to admit that Ziva was a huge part of this show and this fandom. I understand that the show is a group effort and I am not giving up on the show all together, I just hurt. There is so little time to 'wrap up' eight years of someone and I feel slighted. I feel slighted that they never talked about Somolia and I feel slighted that they never got Tony and Ziva together. I don't want them to replace her and I don't want to see her killed off or giving up. I want to sit down and cry. Ziva is why I have a Hebrew a day calendar and partially why I am so interested in Judaism. She is beautiful and strong and I don't know how to say goodbye.
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Episode Title: Descent (NCIS LA 4.24)
Caf-pow Rating: 5 Caf-pows

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Word Count: 1451 (I might have gotten a little carried away).

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So she went to an obgyn yesterday and he said that based on the reports, he didn't think it sounded like cancer. He wants to have another ultrasound with him in the room so that he can look at what he needs to look at. He said that most times you can tell with ultrasounds any more whether it's cancer. I'm very glad that he has made them feel better, but I am not going to get super hopeful until they know for sure. The Doctor seemed really positive, but I was talking to my dad who literally told me everything was fine when they told him to go home an get affairs in order.

Thank you all for your prayers and good thoughts! I'm going to have to talk to one of the pastors at church because I'm going through a crisis of faith. Not because of Jackie being sick, but just a lot of other things mostly to do with my mom dying. Anyway, I appreciate all of you so much!

We ended up having to replace the hot water heater that we've had for a little over 5 years. One of the pipes coming out of the top where it connects with the house pipe corroded and was dripping for an indeterminate amount of time. Which rusted the top of the hot water heater and fried the wiring, so we were lucky the house didn't burn down around us! So that's fixed, it only took four days. I was telling Patrick and some friends that occasionally I take cold showers anyway just so that if I was ever in a Turkish prison the cold shower would at least not be so bad. Apparently, that's weird.
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Just a quick post to let you guys know that my step-mother is no longer in acute renal failure, but that's the good news. The bad news is two parted, the did a ct scan to see if they could find anything and they found diverticulum in her intestines and a cyst on her kidney. That was just the first look, then they found a unidentified mass attached to the ovary (they left when they removed her girl guts because it was attached oddly). So they went to the doctor and she seemed pretty concerned, but never mentioned cancer, but then gave them the full report which said cancer was a pretty good possibility. I'm just glad they called, so that I know and can process. So send up prayers and good thoughts and I'll let you guys know when I hear something else.
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My step-mom went into acute renal failure on Sunday. One doctor put her in the hospital even though it was borderline renal failure, but then another doctor came in and told her she shouldn't be there, that she should just go home and stop oding on diuretics. I think her doctor has her talking like eight because she was so filled up with fluid. So after she fought with the second doctor she checked herself out against medical advice.

Then she tries calling her regular doctor and her argues with her about renal failure and diuretics. They end up deciding to drop the diuretics, but she still ends up taking one because her bp skyrocketed. I can't seem to get the right information from any of them. My dad texted to say that they didn't have any new info the next day and I wanted to yell because I didn't actually have any information at that point.

She's supposed to go for bloodwork today. She didn't like her gi doctor, apparently he said that all doctors up north were useless. He also could have said that it's a shame her doctors didn't catch her cirrhosis of the liver and she just took it wrong. Anyway, she's sure that he has put something in her chart about being difficult.

I just want more information.

ABC meme

May. 13th, 2013 02:07 pm
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Stolen from [personal profile] jeweledvixen and [personal profile] klingonlady
A - Age: 31 (is it sad that I had to count it up?)
B - Bed size: Queen
C - Chore you hate: Dusting
D - Pet's name: Rowdy and Helo
E - Essential start to your day item(s): Glasses and diapers.
F - Favorite color: Blue
G - Gold or Silver: Silver
H - Height: 5' 5"
I - Instruments you play(ed): I could sorta play the piano. I can sing.
J - Job title: Branch Services Staffing Coordinator
K - Kisses or hugs: Hugs
L - Living arrangements: I own my house.
M - Mood: Melancholy
N - Nicknames: Lis, Lissica
O - Overnight hospital stays other than birth: Just when I had Henry.
P - Pet Peeves: Bad grammar, rudeness, and people using their cell phones in a public bathroom.
Q - Quote from a movie: My easy-going nature is getting sorely f*&^$^& tested. –Bill Prader (Slither)
R - Right or left handed: Right.
S - Siblings: Two step-sisters and a step-niece and step-nephew who are now my adopted half-brother and half-sister.
T - Time you wake up: It should be closer to 6am, but it’s normally closer to 7am.
U- Underwear: I wear them yes.
V - Vegetable you dislike: Basically anything but carrots and spinach(if there is enough cheese on the spinach that I can’t actually taste it).
W - Ways you run late: Not making sure everything is ready before I go to sleep.
X - X-rays you've had: I think my teeth are the only x-rays I’ve ever had.
Y - Yummy food you make: Meat loaf (which is coincidentally the only food I make).
Z - Zoo favorite: Elephants and red pandas.
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They both collapse onto the couch exhausted when the kids are finally asleep.
“How do you do that?” Kensi asks.
“Do what, sweetness?” Deeks questions letting his arm come to rest around her shoulders.
“Deal with kids so well? Make them like you? I’m not being facetious I’m really curious. We are both only children from varying degrees of difficult childhoods, but you manage to win over every child you see and I just don’t understand,” Kensi says while lacing her fingers through his on her shoulder.
“Well, I just treat them like people. Ask them questions, listen to their answers. Plus I’m just really lovable, as I’m sure you’ll agree!” Deeks says kissing her cheek.
“I’m serious, Deeks!” pulling away so that he can see her mad face.
“I am too, princess. I just treat them like I treat everyone else. When I was younger and my dad was, well, my dad, I hated being talked down to and being patronized. I was dealing with a lot and I just didn’t want to be ‘handled’, y’know? After I shot my dad, the cops didn’t act like I was some stupid kid, they talked to me and to my mom and the first cop through the door didn’t even mention that I was crying. This was not their first visit to our humble abode, but they sat with my mom and me until we had calmed down and as that first cop was leaving he bent down and gave me his card and said I had done the right thing and that if I ever needed anything to give him a call.”
“Deeks, I-I,” Kensi stutters with tears in her eyes.
“I am just trying to explain why I try to do normal things with them, like trampolines and video games, we see these kids in a pretty tough time, so I just try to keep it normal. Now that we are being serious, can I ask you a question?” Deeks pulls her back against him.
“Yes,” she says uncertainly.
“Do you really not want kids? I’m not talking about soon, just are they ever going to be an option for us?” Deeks asks trying to keep the uncertainty off his face.
“When my mom left, I thought I would never want kids because I would never want them to feel the way I felt. When my dad died I knew I could never put them through that, but then Jack came along and I could maybe see having kids eventually. When he left he took my thoughts of bringing kids into this world with him. I became an agent and it was just a given that I wouldn’t become a parent.”
“Sam is a parent.”
“Can you let me finish? Thank you. Yes, Sam is a parent, but Michelle is no longer an agent. I’ve not been in a place in my life since then that I thought that giving up my career was worth it. Is that going to be a problem?” Kensi questioned trying not to think about Deeks leaving her too.

“Kens, look at me. I love you, we’ve been together for a while now and I’m not walking away. Okay?” he asks and waits for a nod before continuing, “I like kids and would really like to have some, but if that’s a dealbreaker with you, then we won’t. I know that we had less than ideal upbringings and we see some terrible things, but I think that we could make a good life for a child or maybe even two.”

“Deeks?” she looks up uncertainly.

“Babe, this is not something we have to decide tonight, or tomorrow. Let’s just keep going the way that we are going and maybe throw in some babysitting. We’ll see how it goes and make the decision together, okay?”

“Yeah, okay,” Kensi wraps her arms around him, “and Deeks, I love you, too.”
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So for our insurance this next year we had to do a physical. Which is cool, I just had to remember to do it. I had mine Tuesday. I don't remember the last time I had a physical. I go to the doctor every 3-6 months for my anti-anxiety/anti-depression meds. Anyway they had to take my blood pressure twice because I never have high blood pressure and I was so nervous trying to fill out the questionnaire that it made my lower number a little high. Anyway I was going through and came across the 'how long ago was your last tetanus shot' question. Maybe high school? So I had to get a tetanus/whooping cough shot, which has made my arm ache and me just feel crappy.
And they did blood work and I had to pee in a cup, which always takes me by surprise for some reason. I put on the gown and we did a breast exam, she said everything was fine just a little scar tissue, which for the breast reduction was amazingly unnoticeable. Yay, Dr. Taylor! When they first did the breast reduction, Patrick and I used to call them franken-boobies. You actually have to look really close to see the scars now.
Anyway, the nurse called today and I am Vitamin D deficient. Like it's supposed to be between 30 and 100 and mine's 10. My friend at work said jokingly, well maybe if you actually went outside. I'm so white, I burn through hotel rooms, so people mock. So I have to go tonight and get Vitamin D pills.
What I really need to do is get on a routine of exercising. Before Henry I weighed 160 and could have lost a bit without missing it. Now I weigh 184 and I need to work on that. Also my average sugar was right at the limit of normal. So basically I need to be healthier. Which I am terrible at.
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{Take the 100 Things challenge!}

Mine were quotes and this will be the 7th entry:

Politeness is deception in pretty packaging. -Veronica Roth (Divergent)

Withholding words is the same as lying. -Veronica Roth (Divergent)

I used two quotes today because to me they are very similar. Divergent is the first in a wonderful teen trilogy, that I highly recommend. I copied the following from the wikipedia entry because it explains it better than I could:
In the distant future, the city of Chicago has divided society into five separate fractions, each one meant to uphold a particular virtue of humanity: Abnegation (the selfless), Amity (the peaceful), Candor (the honest), Dauntless (the brave) and Erudite (the intelligent). On a given day each year, all 16-year-olds must take an aptitude test that tells them which faction they truly belong to. After taking the test, they can decide whether or not to transfer from their faction to a different one for the rest of their lives.

I have found that most people can't see which faction they would choose. I had no problem at all. I would be Candor. Hands down. I am not saying that I haven't ever lied or that I don't lie in certain situations. But if we are friends and you ask me a question, I will tell you what I think. Things are messed up in this world enough and I don't want to have to worry about people lying to make me feel better. I am surprised sometimes at how much easier communication is when you are honest with people about what you want. I am not normally taken by surprise about what people think of me because I try to be very honest to myself and about myself. Sometimes honesty hurts but that is never my intention, I just have a hard time not saying what I think out loud.
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I know that some of you are very athletic, but, it was pretty warm this weekend so, I went out and walked at the park two days in a row and the second day nearly walked a mile and a half. I was kinda proud. I figure if I can do that a couple of times a week with Henry and maybe Patrick that I can lose a little of this weight. I'm not looking to be super skinny, but I could definitely fit back into my pre-baby clothes and be thrilled. I also need to eat better, but I know that walking at the park is a much better starting point than saying I'm going to eat better.

WARNING/DANGER WILL ROBINSON: I realized after I wrote this that I go into a long ramble about religion and I did not intend to alienate or offend anyone. I hope that I didn't! But I've put it under a cut, so feel free to skip it. Or if you want to look at the pictures and just skip the second paragraph. It is not my intent to convert you I was just trying to provide info for those not familiar with infant baptism/Christening. I love all of you!

Henry's Christening )
*Pastor John started his career as a country music songwriter. I don't know much country music, but he co-wrote: Jenny Come Back by Helen Darling, Look at Me Now and So Much For Pretending (both by Bryan White), and Imagine That by Diamond Rio.


Mar. 14th, 2013 09:29 pm
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I'm pretty sure I'm going to end up on some "list" because I had to buy Benadryl, Nyquil and Dayquil. I'm just saying. My house has been hit with sickness. We are crossing our fingers that Henry gets the least of it. It's all runny noses and sinusy stuff.

Here are some recent pictures of Henry:
This one is blurry, but shows his standing skills:
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This is him laughing as he eats a maple wheel (they dissolve fast, but teach chewing):
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Cut because I am extra ramble-y today!
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Episode Title: Kill House (LA 4.14)
Caf-Pow rating: 4 cafpows
I really enjoyed this episode. I am a fan of most episodes Dave Kalstein writes and this one in particular because of all the tactical/military role playing. When they are able to communicate with touches and signs it makes them seem so together as a team. I also appreciate that Dave Kalstein went through real kill houses in preparation for writing this episode.
It starts off with a military team being ambushed. Then we see Sam switching desks and it really is something only Sam would do. Kensi gets attached to things too easily, Deeks just wants to be settled, and Callen is very much a creature of habit as loathe as he would be to admit it. For being their secret base of operations they sure have things sent there a lot. If is in fact still supposed to be condemned who is delivering these packages and not asking questions. Nell sent herself flowers and now Kensi gets a box, that if she didn't send to herself means someone else sent it and knew enough to address it to the mission. Also, I understand that opening the package would be illegal, but would googling the return address be illegal or just rude?
Jump to the 'kill house' and the pairs discussing the run-through. We actually see Kensi admit to nervousness to Deeks, which seems huge. I mean she doesn't like to show weakness ever. After they fail the mission they are getting a debrief from the trps. Parish is trying to get under their skin and we see Kensi being okay with Deeks coming to her defense.
They go through the next senario at a recently closed restaurant. More 'civilians', but they go in better prepared to be a team. Deeks launches himself over some stairs and onto Inman, taking him down with no problem. They get to the car only to find it won't start and a tear gas bomb goes off. I'm not sure how they were supposed to prevent the car tampering without separating, but I guess that's why I'm not involved in military tactics. Then we find out that Parish is dead. LAPD comes in to investigate, which to me causes two problems. One, I know that LAPD is probably pretty big, but the chances of someone recognizing Deeks would be pretty high I would assume. Also, even if they are pretending to be a tactical team could they not be a navy tactical team and just have a team from another office sent in to investigate? Maybe that last one is a stretch, but it seems more logical than bringing in another office all together. They send Kensi and Deeks after Inman and call Nell out. Suddenly Callen, Sam, and Nell are the only people at a crime scene that isn't even theirs. Then after an inspirational story Callen and Sam get a call from Hetty that Granger is meeting up with Inman at the boat-shed, which also seems to get a lot of visitors. I understand that it is less secret, but to get to the team all you would have to do is stake out the boat-shed and just follow them from there. They leave Nell, which even I can see is a bad idea. I know she has some training, but these guys think that the team are a tactical team and they obviously have no qualms with killing anyone in their way, even the 'friends' Inman had on the last team.
Back to the boat-shed where we find out that Granger who set this whole thing up knows Inman. He lies, or in his case speaks, to Inman and then lets him go. They all go back to ops and realize that Nell is missing. They end up back at the kill house and having to run it for real. They get through only to realize that Inman has Nell as a human shield and a gun pointed at the team. I know that they picked that gun specifically so that she could de-mag it, but he didn't actually have the gun pointed at her and if he were going to shoot her he would have had to move to the point that one of the team would have had a shot. That being said a handgun would have been next to impossible for her to de-mag if it was pointed at her head. Also, de-maging the gun doesn't automatically take all the bullets. If he had the gun ready to fire one bullet would have been in the chamber and I imagine with his training when Nell started moving he still might have hit one of the team, but that is probably being a little too nit-picky.
I hope they eventually resolve what's in the box for Deeks sanity. I love the scenes with Deeks and Kensi bantering. The part where they are in the car and they are saying how "the box" won't change anything and if they opened "the box" then at least they would know, was clever. Having them tell Jenna Parish that they understood what they had to give up to live the way they do was kind of heart breaking. This is the part of the review where you find out I am not good at empathy: Chad Parish was kind of a douche bag and I know that his wife loved him, but she is probably better off raising that kid without him. I'm not saying I was wishing for his death, but it seemed like she was really suffering with his life choices and now she can just tell their child that he was a hero, like people often do when loved ones die.
Hetty showing Callen how easily they could become Granger was a nice touch. I appreciate that they had him apologize even while saying that he would probably do it again. It seems like they are having Nell and Callen be closer. Callen's voice broke while ranting to Hetty about Nell being put in danger. I really like Eric, but the way that they constantly make him the drama queen of the group makes him look silly. Also, I personally don't buy him and Nell as anything, but friends.
I understand that after reading that one would wonder what it was that I actually liked about that episode, but I really find all the tactical planning and team work fascinating and other than things that they did either for simpleness sake or for show, it was a really good episode.
Word Count: 1092 (I get a little ranty and ramble-y when I love something or loathe it.)

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