Just had a huge epiphany...

[ophelias_heart]

This is about NCIS and while it doesn't contain spoilers I am adding a warning. I am not trying to be negative or cause a fight. This thought literally just hit my like a ton of bricks and actually made took my anger down to a dull roar. I posted this on tumblr a min ago and it just made me feel so much better I wanted to share. I am NOT quitting NCISverse or anything like that, I just wanted to share my thoughts:
It just hit me what has been bothering me about NCIS for a long time. For several seasons something was missing and I just couldn't pin down what. They aren't the little show that could anymore, they are the top dog and have been for so long they don't remember anything else. They are so afraid of not being top dog that they don't take chances anymore. Have any of the EP's been there since the beginning? On Ziva's eighth episode they are making out, rolling around on a bed joking about her being pregnant. The last episode that I remember freaking out over is Truth and Consequences. I'm not saying they haven't had good episodes, but even when the building exploded none of them were injured to the extent that they could have been from their proximity to the bomb (from my perspective). Anyway my point is that they are so afraid of not being number one that they can't/won't rock the boat. Okay, so Jackie Vance and Eli David were killed, you maybe saw them on an episode once or twice a year. That's why after eight years Tony and Ziva had two kisses. That's why the car crash didn't injure Ziva or Tony to any degree. I loved NCIS and I will always have love about that show, but I can't keep watching. And I understand that this is going to upset people, but I think I would have liked the episode more if they had killed Ziva off. Or done something that was special. It hurts my heart that this show is no longer the show I fell in love with. I will continue to follow everyone I met through NCIS and I will still watch NCIS LA, but I just don't WANT to watch it anymore. I feel better just knowing why I was sad about not just this past episode, but the show in general. I love all of you and I don't mean to offend anyone, I just had an epiphany and wanted to share.

Comments

[whiteink]

I decided over the weekend the same thing. I havent watched the 2 episodes this season, but I know about what happens, and it's not worthy of her. she deserved a kick ass ending, to have gone out with a bang, not a whimper, and im disapointed in tbtp for not making it rock. even if they didnt kill her off the character that they build her up to be deserved something more than a whimper and a tear.

[ophelias_heart]

I watch last weeks and I literally couldn't look at gifs without becoming a ball of rage and then I had my revelation and I am okay and I can love it, while not being in love with it. I can let it go without being angry. My love has always outlasted shows, so it's really weird.

I shouldn't have bothered watching, but I thought maybe...I was wrong.

[whiteink]

I haven't really seen anything about it gif wise or such. I deleted a bunch of tumblr tiva fans back in july when they were all ranty, because i didnt want to see the anger.

i'm not angry. Just sad. Tonight's the first Ziva-less show, and it's been exactly 4 months since I lost my mom .... it's fitting in a heartbreaking way.

[ophelias_heart]

I still follow everyone for now, but I can overlook most of it or delete them later.

Bless your heart! Wish I could give you an actual hug right now.

[whiteink]

In July I was just so angry at the comments some people had about 'it's like someone close to me died', etc that I started removing them.

[ophelias_heart]

Totally feel you.

[dragonheart]

I have been having issues with the show for quite some time & with the Ziva exit being the straw that broke the camel's back.

I have effectively been "gone" since June - and you know what? I haven't missed it nearly as much as I feared I would.

There are too many other shows to enjoy and squee to be had than to waste time watching a show out of "loyalty" or "nostalgia".

Don't feel bad for leaving it behind....the time was right for you (and you are not alone).

[ophelias_heart]

I feel so much better now that I'm not seething with rage about the entire situation. Are you still loving Agents of SHIELD?

[klingonlady]

I have watched everything but tonights episode and I am not impressed either. I am only watching DC now out of "need" for ncis_verse. It's not a fun priority anymore. I only saw the last minute and a half tonight or so to get the last word.. It's downloaded for when I have time.

LA on the other hand seems FAR more willing to take the risks!! Lets hope they keep that up! That is good tv right now!!

[ophelias_heart]

I am so in love with LA right now! We gave up cable so I have to wait to watch it until the next day, but I like spoilers so I go see what happened and then watch it.

I really expected more disagreement from this post, it's sad how many people here and on lj agree.